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God DOESN'T Hate Fags

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God DOESN'T hate fags.  I  know its a really risky title, but  I  wanted your  attention. Hatred. It can sneak up on you, it can be blatantly thrown at you, but it seems that no matter where it comes from or how it comes it still hurts just as bad. Hatred and disapproval have always been a factor in my life personally because I have always been really scared of what people thought of me and how I could fix they way they perceived me. It simply caused a lot of fear and insecurity in my life that carried over into my new found life I am living following God. Being gay and trying to find some form of acceptance from those that are so close minded can be the hardest thing you do, but it is also hard to find acceptance when you come out of a life you never wanted.    I feel as if some times, someone has blinded me and right when they take off the blind fold, I see that  I'm  in a tub full of sharks ready to attack at any moment. Personally, I have feared what was and
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A Brother To Hold My Hand

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          Proverbs 17:17  " A friend is always loyal, but  a brother is born to help in time of need."       At this point  I  was everywhere. After  realizing  that  I  had to cut out shows and songs,  I  wondered what else  I  would have to cut out.  I  had never been actually friends with any guys and  I  felt that honestly, that was for the best.  I  was cutting out things that promoted men so why should  I  connect with men, if that was my issue. When  I  first began this journey, after allowing Jesus to change me,  I  was against  being  around guys.  I  lived in a house with 5 other guys my first year of schooling and  I  was always  afraid if I took the time to get to know them, I'd be attracted to them. I'd spent 24/7 with my cousin, avoiding male contact, so bonding with guys just wasn't on my todo list.       This was a lie from the enemy though. God created us as relational creatures in order for us to help each other and commune with one an
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The Morning After?

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        Well by now you may wonder who this guy is. Who was the guy trapped in the heels, and the bound by a false identity. This guy was me. I was the one that strived for attention and had no sense of identity. For me false lashes, rougé and and contour could never hide the blemishes of my identity. But now everything had changed. I had changed. He changed me. But what now. It was the morning after and I wasn't sure what was next.       That next week came and I began this journey of learning to be a Man, but not just a man, a Man of God. What the world has taught Men should be is not what God called us to be. Being a man can't be taught in a short school session or on the playground. Yet I didn't even know what being a man looked like so I wasn't sure how long it took. I started to consider what my life looked like from here and I drew a blank. I honestly couldn't ever picture being a man. It was almost foreign to me, But at this point I knew that whatev
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Letting "Her" Go.

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Ephesians 1:5 (ESV)    " H e predestined us  for  adoption to himself as sons through Jesus Christ,  according to the purpose of his will"              As the tittle the suggests, this is a true story of a transition and as the scriptures suggests, its about identity. A transition that happened in a guys life about two years ago and the identity that was wiped away and made new. This guy met someone who absolutely changed his life, and when he met that someone he decided to change his life and let go of who he thought he was and grab hold of who he was to become. Now this is not some lousy, cheesy relationship story about someone who, in order to win the love of the other, changed who they were completely, but it is a story about a change. This is the story of a guy who was caught up in a LGBT world that never really belonged there. But before we go too far, lets back up a little.    This guy was gay, closeted, but gay. He never had much of a male figure to follow and wa
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